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Letter.

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It's still sitting here
My letter
carefully sealed tight (with love)
postage stamp in the corner, as always.
It's waiting
watching
Knowing that the message it contains
could change the course of everything
Questioning me
As to why it has not been mailed.

Why was it not hurriedly stuffed in the mailbox
and sent on its way,
an aura of excitement etched in its papery fibers?


It was because I had waited.
I had waited until the dark thoughts came
(The ones that make you regret everything you've done)
And they had planted the doubting seed
in my head.
They had whispered
with their soundless voices

that maybe...
                          (He wasn't who I thought him to be)

              perhaps...
                                 (It was all a lie)

                           what if...
                                           (He doesn't mean what he does)

And that one seed
had bloomed into a weed of uncertainty
that blossomed in its ugly form
and swelled like a balloon
bursting open with a million more tiny beings of darkness

That all s p r e a d
and grew,
and thrived
Wrapping their vines of doubt around
the feelings written on that paper
and holding it hostage.

And I
like Eve and the snake
Had Believed them.
I really wanted to mail this letter.

Then I talked to a friend, and she made me doubt everything about the would-be receiver.

And then I thought... that maybe I shouldn't tell him. That maybe he was a lie and it wasn't worth it.

So it's still here, my letter.
Just waiting, anxious as to what will happen next.
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Ameko-Shadowsong's avatar
from "that maybe" on, this whole thing is--perfect. I love what you did with the spacing, and the final stanza...

I can't tell you whether to send it or not, but good luck. Think about it. Maybe your friend was just pointing out the possibilities? Think about whether it's really a lie, or it just could be. And good luck. :hug: